The Fun has started

Pet and I have been playing well the last few weeks. The belt has been on frequently.. and he's been getting plugged, it's been a lot of fun. but a piece is still missing, I'm often left feeling frustrated and not sated.

I swear it's because I'm such a hard come.. even by myself w vibrator it will take forever.. it completely sucks and i don't think we've ever really hit the mark so to speak I can come clitoral but have never vaginally.. Constantly frustrated seems to be my cross to bare.

I think this will be news to pet, but it seems that is just how it is.. I pretend well for his benefit although sometimes I do get what i perceive as close it never seems to peak for me. Maybe I just don't know my body well enough, haven't had enough sexual partners to know what i like. It's all very confusing. I enjoy sex though and seem to have a body that's made for it, I get sopping wet and I respond well to stimulus LOL.

Pet turns me on easily but it seems the follow through isn't there. I really get off on fucking him, I like all the things we do.. but I seem to feel gypped which is so not how this is supposed to work. Maybe I've just read to many romance novels and expect it to come off easy.. but I really wish things would shape up.. you'd think with the amount of years we've had of practice something would work out right.

Pet of course seems to do not much more then irritate when he sticks his fingers in, and he doesn't get the tongue work right although it certainly feels good. I'm starting to think of myself as a failure which is never something I would consider myself. I want to be the MILF, I want to get off, I want my pet or another to be able to lay his hands, mouth on me and get me to come. I'm sure if I lay off the vibrators and eggs that would happen but that's about the only way I'm getting any sort of relieve as short lived as it is.

This didn't quite turn out to be the post i wanted it to be so will be blogging another one shortly but sometimes i think it's important to be honest.