for cryn out loud

here we go again,

pet has come down from his high sub activity and i get nothing but attitude. Pet has his moments but not two minutes ago i get snapped at *sigh* now i don't care one way or the other but the hot cold shit needs to end. his attitude has sucked i'm ready to say no more cumming ever because this is a constant thing when he has cum more then a few times and it is enough to piss me off!

Pet needs to start treating me with some reverence if he wants to have me as his mistress

it would have worked just as well to go "no go have fun i do not need to be there" and when did i say that i was only meeting for a drink? i figured i'd meet this new guy for a drink and if i was comfortable i was planning to go suck his cock and have him fuck me. thank you very much

I'm not sure what he though or what he thinks but i just wish the attitude would end and he would either tell me what he is thinking or stuff it. I guess i just need to be more dominate? stop being nice and waiting for him to be in the mood and use him as the toilet and little sissy he is. I'm just never wanting to press things as it has never worked me pressing in the past and usually results in arguments and that just sucks.

I just wish things would get easier and less complicated

wow my last post turned more into a bitch fest then i had thought it would so wanted to talk more about the things i am enjoying, p

Pet has been spending time between my theighs and ass and i am enjoying his efferts a lot i would love it if he tried to spend some time finding my g spot and getting me to come.

I also wish pet would put his collar back on I also want to give pet a nice beating but i know for that to work he needs to be in the right mood and so do i so hopefully this weekend. so many thoughts and not nearly enough time lol but i truly do love my pet and want him to be happy so will do all that i can as a mistress to take care of him as well as giving me everything i want too.

sometimes though i just wish pet and i could have a normal marriage so that these issues and confusions wouldn't come up. don 't get me wrong i enjoy the kink but sometimes i wonder what we would be without it i think we would still have a close relationship but i wonder if we wouldn't have our secrets or if he would have cheated or any number of things but i also wonder if maybe i wouldn't be so controlling and suspisious and worried urgh... hate this type of mood and wish it would bugger off just want my pet and i to be happy and kink is one way we are doing it so it's all good right?

rabbit holes and other things

once again pet and i are down a rabbit hole. started with me leaving on a trip and keeps going. pet spent much of the time self playing while i was away and while i knew and enjoy the results being faced with it is slightly annoying also i am upset that in the whole time i was gone pet didnt do much. didnt sweep the floors vaccum or even finish getting the childrens rooms finished (which he said was kind of his goal) im just wondering if he had the energy and time to play he couldnt do a few of these items i know watching the kids is hard work because i do it too but i manage to get the work done.

as to other things im loving the things we are doing pet has drank from me two morning now and i think i want to keep this going. i also have several meetings planned for fwbs so that i dont need pets cock hopefully one or two go well and i wont need to do this again for a long time. i love the benifits but hate the meetings and getting to this point it drives me nuts.

i understand pets adversions to it to but wish he would find a few too so that i could watch him fuck. i so enjoy it and pet likes it too.

now on to something that will piss pet off but i just need to get out while away two ladies that pet is friends with went out they messaged pet and asked him to come out and then when he said he couldnt they wanted to know when he could go out out with them without me! now this just sits compleatly wrong with me. i just think its wrong they would even say it let alone think it and that they want my husband/pet out with them without me. i wonder how they would feel if i asked their husbands out without them. it seems like they are almost trying to get him alone and it threatens me. pet says he has no social life and that it is my fault! i say its his because he doesnt go out with his male friends. other then my dates i do not go out with males without him! i think it sends the wrong message and it is one i do not want presented. im sure nothing would happen but it does not change the fact that both these ladies are rather flirty and come on to him all the time and im sorry but i dont like it! he likes to share i do not. i would never have done any of this without pets go ahead and i think even then he wonders if he shouldnt have the same oppertunity and wants that oppertunity but i think it would be more then i could take and i know gander meet goose but i would stop it all before i could go to that point. and would prefer living vanilla then going there.

i say you want a social life have one go for a drink with the guys, a movie, whatever but leave the women alone