a new day

we didn't have a major play date last night, my lover for lack of a better term wasn't able to make it last night after all.. pity but I managed to have some fun anyway. Pet and I had a conversation over dinner. It went well, and he agrees that he needs to figure things out now that the rules have changed a little but that again mistress has proven she is right once more. Man i love it when i'm right.


A little about the last few months..

I've been exploring my sub side and enjoying it. however it did mess a little with my dom side and made a little bit of a blunder in that it took a week to get out of it the first time. now i'm not saying every Dom needs to be topped but man I do believe it does make me more well rounded in all aspects of my life. but since I haven't heard from the man who was topping me in over 3 weeks... I'm not sure we'll be playing anymore which is a pity, I really wanted some sort of relationship with him but just not sure whats up.

so forward and on word and hope we will be friends if nothing else and that he can lead me to topping pet much better, already this has happened and as i said before Pet and I were doing well until he decided to resit. I honestly think a lot of it has to do with the amount he cums or how much he has been allowed to have regular sex.. I guess we shall discover as things go on.

We have also been exploring ourselves and again i think this has done nothing but make me grow as a better wife, mother and mistress. I think all the self examination while uncomfortable has been something that i much needed and need to do more of.. I think because of the relative young age i am.. still in the 20's although not much longer there is still much i need to learn about myself and pet and that will be found by this self exploration.

anyway all for now. cheers
xoxo