time flys

oh what to say..

it's been awhile but we haven't been completely inactive, there has been much fun on both mine and pets parts.

Just last weekend I had him clipped to the bench, and was beating him most convincingly.. until he used the safety the wuss.. I was extremely disappointed when he did so as i had gotten him to a nice cherry pink all over his ass. but I guess he needed a drink, he drinks and then came crashing down.. so not fun for me.. Of course we have an extremely jam packed weekend this weekend so chances of us getting to play are slim.. and i'm not feeling particularly motivated. pet has been rather cranky this week because i've been out more then usual. the joys i guess of busy schedules. I have things i'm commit ed to attend..I have no choice, and others that i'm committed to doing because i want to be healthier, happier and in a much better place. i've started a weight loss journey and with it comes his need to understand that I do these things not only for myself but for him. So when we are in public he can be proud to have a good looking mistress/wife whichever the situation calls for. as well as I want ot be an example to our children young as they are that hey mommy is getting healthy. I'm not fat but I could easily be if i didn't step it up.. so i'm stepping it up.

back to the topic at hand so to speak. ..

pet and I have been talking back and forth on what we want and don't want.. it's so freaking hard to come up with ideas, I'm relatively young yet and i think in many ways I just haven't made up my mind. I like so many things and so many things just seem to be out of mine or pets grasp somethings are not so much out of grasp but I'm not sure i can make them come true.
I like sex, I like oral sex, I love having sex with other men regardless of pet in the room or not, I want a real hot guy screwing me while pet watches and or participates in the limited way he is allowed. I like watching pet be screwed by another guy, and pet made to suck others off. I like not always having to be in control. which I have to be with pet most of the time, I want a bath drawn and waited on while i bath and after dried off, messaged and then eaten out and then made love too.. i want to be put on my stomach, my ass beat, my shoulders beat, arms above my head before being screwed senseless I want to be made incomprehensible and screwed till I'm passed out. ROFL. I want a steady lover other then pet. someone that has the romance that pet lacks, the dominance and strength.

in so many ways i'm a switch, I love doing what i do to pet but i love the other aspect the loving attention of a top making me feel safe and warm, before beating me lol.
I would love to find a lover and top rolled into one, I don't think that is who my current top is, my current top is great at the beating and making me submissive but to have some one that can dominate me totally whoa whole new can of worms..

I see pet wanting to do that for me and i love seeing him try but it is against his nature in so many ways. He did a fairly nice job of it a few weeks ago..

anyway I'm kind of rambling here and I'm still on the kids time.. does it ever end??
so done for now but will attempt to post more often.

ciao